Khalid Mukhtar

This love is when you hear a name
And can’t hold back a tear
Because of all that someone did
Before you landed here

This love is for a voice you haven’t
Heard, a face not seen
And ways and manners witnessed in
Descriptions of a scene

This love is like the grief the son
Of Rabāḥ felt down deep
When words that once rang out of him
Could only make him weep

So khalid don’t be sad if all
Your love is shallow streams
Its waters drain the plains to reach
The ocean beyond dreams

It was a different time.
There were no accidental key presses
Or swipes, or acts of feckless fat-fingering,
And gestures weren’t reduced to fingertip gymnastics.
There was enough paper, enough ink and the innocent audacity
To write down our feelings in long winding sentences
That began with “Dear” or “Dearest”, or “My dear, dear, darling.”

I miss those cliché beginnings.
They held meaning for me.
Someone had taken the time
To address me with a term of endearment.
I couldn’t care less that everyone else used those same terms.
I simply appreciated that they weren’t missing.

I loved how when the writer ran out of space, and chose
To cram one more thought in the margins, unaware
That it would beget more thoughts, and more, until
The letter, finally complete with marginalia,
Looked like the treasure map that it truly was.

If you paid close attention, you could just play back
The actual scene of composition, feel the distractions,
The afterthoughts and the gray comedy of being
Human. You may detect mood. Maybe even madness.

And “P.S.” had all the meaning and excitement
Of a genuinely forgotten note added just in time, like:
P.S. Kiss the baby for me.

But by far, the single most powerful message a letter bore for me
Was its confession of crumples witnessing that, at some point,

It wasn't meant to be sent.